I'll Be Missing You(song)

Verse one: puff daddy

Every day I wake up

I hope Im dreamin

I cant believe this shit

Cant believe you aint here

Sometimes its just hard for a nigga to wake up

Its hard to just keep goin

Its like I feel empty inside without you bein here

I would do anything man, to bring you back

Id give all this shit, shit the whole knot

I saw your son today

He look just like you

You was the greatest

Youll always be the greatest

I miss you big

Cant wait til that day, when I see your face again

I cant wait til that day, when I see your face again...

Yeah... this right here (tell me why)

Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone

That they truly loved (cmon, check it out)

Verse one: puff daddy

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show

I laced the track, you locked the flow

So far from hangin on the block for dough

Notorious, they got to know that

Life aint always what it seem to be (uh-uh)

Words cant express what you mean to me

Even though youre gone, we still a team

Through your family, Ill fulfill your dream (thats right)

In the future, cant wait to see

If you open up the gates for me

Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)

Try to black it out, but it plays again

When its real, feelings hard to conceal

Cant imagine all the pain I feel

Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)

I know you still living your life, after death

Chorus: faith evans

Every step I take, every move I make

Every single day, every time I pray

Ill be missing you

Thinkin of the day, when you went away

What a life to take, what a bond to break

Ill be missing you

[puff] I miss you big

Verse two: puff daddy

Its kinda hard with you not around (yeah)

Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)

Watchin us while we pray for you

Every day we pray for you

Til the day we meet again

In my heart is where Ill keep you friend

Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed

Strength I need to believe

My thoughts big I just cant define (cant define)

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks

You and me taking flicks

Makin hits, stages they receive you on

I still cant believe youre gone (cant believe youre gone)

Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)

I know you still living youre life, after death

Chorus

[faith evans] somebody tell me why

Interlude: faith evans

On that morning

When this life is over

I know

Ill see your face

Outro: 112

Every night I pray, every step I take

Every move I make, every single day

Every night I pray, every step I take

[puff] every day that passes

Every move I make, every single day

[puff] is a day that I get closer

[puff] to seeing you again

Every night I pray, every step I take

[puff] we miss you big... and we wont stop

Every move I make, every single day

[puff] cause we cant stop... thats right

Every night I pray, every step I take

Every move I make, every single day

[puff] we miss you big

*music fades out*

This song speaks on the behalf of how i feel everyday ever since the departure of Tian Leng..haih...i just miss you so much...

Be Thankful

FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE or HE IS AT HOME,
NOT 'LEPAKING'.

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE

FOR A GARDEN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME .

FOR THE PARKING SPOT
I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION .

FOR MY HUGE UTILITIES BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I LIVED COMFORTABLY .

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH OR TEMPLE
WHO SINGS OFF KEY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.

Be thankful each and everything that you have and do.start your day by taking time to look around and appreciate what is around you and always be grateful for you are blessed with another day to be here.

The Most used word-LOVE...value it...

Since this month is cupid’s month, I thought of writing a blog entry about the most used four letter word-Love.I know its kinda late but..blah..wat the heack.. ;) Love is the most powerful word and feeling that exist among us. Without love, we would all be living in hatred and despise. Without love, we wouldn’t be able to achieve world peace and unity among mankind. Without love, we wouldn’t learn to give, care or respect. Without love, we wouldn’t be able to complete the things that we love to do most. Some of us misunderstand the purpose of love. Love is not only limited to family or that special someone but it is also an act and feeling towards friends, pets, all the living things in this world even a job or an interest. But first we must learn to love ourselves before we love others. As a conclusion, love is the foundation of everything we do in life thus, it is important that we practice the act love.

Love comes in all sorts of way, love gives itself and not bought. The act of love can be shown and expressed in various ways either verbally, physically or writing or any ways that people can ever think of! Love can be expressed through big bear hugs, sweet kisses, hand written black and white poems, letters, sayang your pet or just by saying the simple ‘I love you’. It is really up to you to express your love to your loved ones because when you truly love someone, they can feel it too even just by spending some silent time with each other. It is amazing how love works. It is so powerful that it can change someone for the better when it is used wisely or for worse if it is misused. But don’t get upset when it turns out wrong. It helps them to keep trying. Understand that love is not a toy; love is not to be taken for granted; love is to be used in the right ways.

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. LOVE NEVER FAILS.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

This verse is taken from the bible. It is my favourite verse because I believe that everything stated there is true. Love should be sacred and pure. It should be acted out of sincerity and should not be tainted. “LOVE NEVER FAILS”. Most of us have a failed relationship and we lose hope in love ever since. We should not lose hope. We should not give up. As long we are still living, there are still many chances to love again

Remember that people will forget what you said; people will forget what you did. But people can never forget how you make them feel. So beginning today, treat everyone as if they are going to be dead by midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness, love, understanding you can muster and do it with no thought of any reward. Because
“Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what love means.” –Leo Buscaglia

Home is where you belong...

‘Home sweet home’. Home is the best place of everything in this world. It is because home is the place where you were brought up and it is the place where you feel secure and find comfort. Not forgetting abounding love and care from family members. It is your sanctuary where you can be yourself or any way you like. Home is Tian Leng’s favourite place of all his favourite places because it is where he can be pampered, hear words of wisdom from daddy, get to eat mommy’s delicious home cooked food, talk and learn a thing or two from his big sis if she’s back and catch up on what is happening to her lil sis. Not forgetting his friends. Always manage to squeeze time in for them too. He grew up in Port Dickson thus he has countless memories with his friends and family in PD. That is why he never fails to come home every weekend.

Everytime i hear the song Home by Michael Buble, it reminds me of him. Maybe it’s cause of the lyrics? Anyways, it is also one of his favourite songs or maybe one of his emo song cause if some of you didn’t know, he has quite an amount of emotional songs in his laptop lol. However it is a good song to listen to because it is peaceful and gives you a warm fuzzy feeling. He saved this song in his phone too so maybe whenever he misses home he just listens to this song. Everytime when i listen to this song, i will be reminded of the days when he would come home every weekend. Usually he would already be back home on Fridays but unfortunately, 30th November 2007 (Friday) was the day that he didn’t manage to come home as how i expected him to come home.

I will never ever forget neither that day nor the days after that till 3rd December 2007.
30th November 2007- The Fall*The day we heard of the tragic news, rushed to KLGH. Had to wait and wait and wait before we could see him.
1st December 2007- The Restless Day*After seeing him we cried through the whole night and did not get any sleep for a whole day and also the day they did the operation on him Then he was transferred to the ICU.
2nd December 2007- Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining?*Everything seems fine. Aunties and uncles and most of his friends came to visit, it was packed. Then all went back. On the way back, got a call asking my family to go back to the hospital. Then all settled we went back except for my sister.
3rd December 2007- Goodbye...*Was midnight when reached PD. Parents rushed to KL again around 3am. i was at home till next morning. I was supposed to go up. But... 9.45am-He’s gone.. so there’s no need to go anymore. Get ready for funeral.

The funeral was held for 3 days. Then we threw his ashes into the sea on the next day. This is just a general guide through of what happened. Maybe i’ll post another one of the more specific version.


Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
When will you come home?
Mmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
So just please come home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been thinking bout’ the memories
That we shared before
Each second of everyday
Hoping you’re still here today
Well I wouldn’t think of it
But it's impossible
Because all that i do each day
Reminds me of you

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But will you come home?
Mmmm,so please come home

Please come hoooooooome
I'm just too far from where you are
So please come home

And I feel just like I'm living
A different life
Without you here with me
Seems like everything’s not going right
And I know just why you could not
Be here with me
Maybe this was meant to be
But you were always there for me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
Will you be back home?
I hope you will

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, will you come home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Please just come hoooooooome
I miss you so much, I need you so much
So please come home
Please come hoooooooome
Hope it’ll be alright
That you’ll be home tonight
Please come back home

It has been two years already man. Since the day you left Tian Leng, i was hoping that you’ll be coming back home again as u used to. I think it is not me only who feel that way, all of us feel that too because you mean too much too us. You had spent your time here with us for over 21 years of your life, the heavenly Father is calling you to go home in heaven with him just don’t forget that you still have another home here with us ok.

**The lyrics of this song were changed as a special dedication to beloved Tian Leng.
Forever Missing You,
June